That little step

Sunday, September 14, 2014, 12:00 AM

290 days since the end of A levels
165 days since the end of my work at SBF
52 days to my first finals in uni


I realize I have been including countdowns in my every other posts recently. Not countdown to future events but counting of days after some very significant events in the past. And yes, the first 2 countdowns brought me through the times I DESPERATELY wanted to get over :') And sadly, I have now added another countdown to my first Finals in uni and I really can't believe it's happening SO SOON I can't even...


It's already been around 5 weeks since school started but I'm still feeling so unready for uni ): Whoever said uni is all about fun and chillax life is liar man. All I thought about uni was really just fun fun and MORE FUN but apparently now that I have started to join some stuffs like JDC, Hall dance and Bizmag Subcomm (merely 3 commitments) and I already feel like I have no time for work. For the past few weeks in hall I've been sleeping at around 3am almost everyday omg. But I got to admit I weren't even studying past midnight. Most of the time was spent chilling and talking to my hall friends. DONT KNOW WHY but somehow we always just manage to talk crap till the morning :O I honestly never thought I'm that kind of person that can talk through the entire night SACRIFICING MY SLEEP. Oh well, maybe this is what hall life is really all about and I kind of like it despite the super jialat sleep deprivation that comes with it HAHAHA!

Oh, and partly because I spent half of my time in the past month training for pageant which I honestly regretted joining at first. Was so afraid of stepping out of my comfort zone for the first and second camp and ultimately took that small step out and agreed to attend the pageant interview during hall camp. I really almost wanted to say no again until the persuasions around and within me took me over. I didn't hope for anything else but for the journey to be a fun and fulfilling one. I swear I was complaining like no end to anyone and everyone I met during the past one month. And I'm really sorry to everyone around me because of the negative vibe I radiated at that period of time.. But as the end got closer, I started to wonder how I'd feel after pageant is over. Would I feel empty (like many other pageantees experienced) without daily trainings? Without something to complain and without something to dread? (LOL) HAHAHA I guess I ended up not feeling much emptiness because it daunted upon me that I have tons of work to catch up on and have scholarship to maintain. And the thought killed me again. WHY OH WHY. Looking at how I can't understand any shit during lessons leave me really helpless, hopeless and worried about my grades and scholarship.

Oh well, away from the stressful part for a while, here's a little throwback to the big night we pigeons had been working hard for...






















One week since DnD have ended but everything felt like it was just yesterday.
Was nervous like hell on stage my smile was shivering but nevertheless, all the cheers and encouragements from my friends totally made everything better.

Best thing I got out of this journey is definitely the friends made, the experience and knowing all my family and friends who supported and encouraged me in one way or another. I didn't feel that I was on the journey alone but with so many others who went through it with me. I am honestly thankful to everyone who have helped me in one way or another, be it a simple pat on my shoulders or a word of encouragement. And especially everyone who helped to spread my facebook pic despite me looking so ugly in it. I was honestly touched :') And of course the seniors and pigeons who made the jouney much more meaningful and fun :)

Looking back, I shouldn't regret taking that step out of my comfort zone afterall. All the fun times, the friends made and once-in-a-lifetime experiences. Couldn't ask for a better way to kickstart my yolo-uni-life with HAHAHA ;)

Till next time! :)