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Late night thoughts

Sunday, May 25, 2014, 11:46 PM

Yay!!! Finally changed my blog URL back to kittymaoz! ☺️☺️ AFTER 3 FREAKING YEARS!! And if anyone still remembers the page that I had while I was on this long hiatus..

My constipated face and that epic "I'll be back" that never happened for the 3 years 😂

My initial thought was to resume the blog after Olvl in 2011 but who knows I'm only back here now in 2014, having done w my Alvl and awaiting my uni life which is gonna real soon.

So....

Here's a reality check.

179days of freedom. 90 days spent on a full time job. And the rest of it currently spent on 2 part time jobs and driving lessons. AND YAY TO 14 DAYS OF HOLIDAYS TO EUROPE IN JUNE!! :')) it's a much needed break from my 7 days work week (自找one) LOL.

One of my jobs is being part of a service crew in a cafe/restaurant while the second one is in a hotel. Ok I kinda like both jobs but more of the hotel one because the colleagues there are nicer? Somehow? Probably because it's in the hospitality line so everyone kind of have a pleasant and easy-to-talk-to character! But I still hope to work w Lee if I can but she work on weekends and fri nights only :/ So I tried to schedule my June work days on Friday night and pray that I get what I submitted!! Okay but besides working with Lee I would also love to chill by Clarke Quay w her!! Hahah! Like we just talk about anything everything such that I couldn't even remember what we said after that 😂😂 well because times like this are hard to come by for me and honestly, spending quality time sitting down with someone you're comfortable with and just talking about life is a kind of luxury to me. I mean, I really cherish these times. As much as I hope to have more of these, there aren't many people who have such time for me. Hahaha 💔💔 Okay fine sometimes I admit I'm too busy for others too. But I really try to make time.

As I reflect from time to time, I always come to realise that I've been missing out many people in my life. Like I've come to a realization that there are so many friends who have parted their ways from me, epecially from my sec sch. And I really can't help but feel waves of sadness and regret hitting me me again and again whenever I think about it.

Knowing many people is one thing. But having really close friends is totally another different thing. And one thing I have definitely learned over the years is that having a few close friends >>>>>> knowing many acquaintances.

And why didn't I realise this earlier?

feeling really friend-less now.