
Took away the tag board. Cause i think those tags by unknown advertisers are really irritating. i feel this place being polluted when those tags are there -.- However, i still know the importance of a tagboard and i might put it up back soon. idk, see my mood x)
Not the first time.
I was instructed by teacher and went around asking for signatures for certain thing.
Like many people were asking me why am i doing all these jobs, im a vhp.
Seriously what a joke, i got stuck and speechless when i was asked this.
people were like saying im doing all saikang...
saikang warrior..... dog..... i know they dont really mean bad abt it.
but i guess that's what reflects me in others' eyes.
those words shot through my heart like a bullet and triggered something in there.
the thought of Whatever i've been doing wasn't worth those efforts.
Because nothing gets recognized. well from s1oc till now, ive learned that.
Its quite bad. i feel like im wearing the badge for nothing.
no one views me as one. im just one that goes around doing all sort of tiny stuffs.
im not complaining about those stuffs i was assigned to.
i was instructed to do so and i feel that its my responsibility to complete them.
Call me stubborn or what, when people tell me to just 'Why you ask me to do all thesee?!' to the teacher, i just failed doing so. i went on my way.
But once again when people start saying im doing ALL SAIKANG,
i feel myself dumb once again. seriously, just a minor comment, true yet hurting.
Eagles award (services), i was really in fact Very sad when people say i got it cause i did a lot of saikang.
lol. A Hurting Joke.
No one really understands..
i haven't been very comfortable with the merge like some of you.
and yea i was instructed by the teacher i dont really like, to do some sort of stuffs,
i do it, and i got true yet hurting comments from fellow friends
serious, its not anyone's fault for your comments.
its just that the comments had a great impact on me, it set me pondering so that was what i was seen in the eyes of others.
Its like being stuck in the middle,
one side shooting arrows at you,
and the other side viewing you as some kind of dog..
feeling low.
- ):