bathing in tears
Saturday, April 17, 2010, 10:27 PM
if cying are solutions to problems, ...
i really really wonder where i got those courage from when i first decided to joined the class.
joining with a bunch of pros, every moment i look at them dance its like my confidence going down by 5% every second. and when its my turn, i dont even dare to look at the mirror, coz in the end, i will still drop my head with a sigh because im really so bad at it that the more i look at myself, the more i think i should just stop. there isn't anymore confidence for me to carry on. :/
just where i should find confidence ?
something for me to hang on and continue doing what i want to do.
being too strong is seriously no good, under-covering all the emotions with just a nod and a smile saying 'im okay'. when everything is bottled up to the brim, someday, when it explodes, this is when the emotional breakdown comes in.. trust me, this is the worst habit that one can have.
when can i seriously have a mental rest ?
well, i guess not anytime soon... HAIZ !
i would have cried every now and then.